A door opened and evil slid in
Like a silent waft of smoke
Curling around and embracing the heart
For the fatal blow
And in one split second
Viciously ripped apart
A lifetime effort of self-composure
A wall of denial
Gone…

Disclosing a brutally savaged heart
Exposing a blistering truth
That now has to be dealt with
For the heart does not bleed lies
But only the ugly truth
Of what we perceived
And conditioned ourselves
To be before others
Now exposed as a lie

And as much as evil is the lord of lies
Revealing it to our own moral sense
Brings him much joy to see our
Facade of civility crumble
And be openly exposed as such to others
For we know at that point
The greatest humility and shame
And even then we clutch it back
To minimize the damage

My heart was laid bare to me today
And the ugly and graceless foundation
Has me back down on my knees
Reeling from the awful truth
That evil resides deep within my heart
and there is no help, no damage control
That I can do…Except wait on you….
to save me…
from myself…

04.20.11